EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED

It's been long time since the last post i posted here. There are many things happened. There are many things have changed. 

I just knew it that real life wasnt that easy. I didnt say life was easy before but now i just found out life was so much harder so much tougher to deal with than i used to think before.

2014 is the year that i cried a lot, perhaps. 

I have graduated from senior high school and am going to continue my study. I find so many difficulties. im shocked.

There are many things in my head in my mind that i keep thinking about them and sure it bothers me as hell. but you know im fucked up already. Everything went wrong. I got disappointments many times already. yeah Im suck!everything sucks.It's like almost everything i do, didnt turn out to be what i want it to be.

I cried a lot. Do you know how it feels to hold your emotion and not to cry when your parents or your sister call you?asking hows everything going?. and its not fucking easy to answer. you cant just say " Everything is suck, i am suck, i didnt pass" easily.

Sorry i just came back and now telling you some shits that just got real. Reallyyy!

Im hoping that everything is gonna be okay at the end and turn out to be something that i want.

How on the earth am superposed to do? i just want my parents my family proud of me and i want them to be happy.

BULLYING AT SCHOOL

BULLYING AT SCHOOL

                According to me, bullying at school has become a nightmare for students. Bullying is a big problem that common happens in School between a student and a student or even worse between a group of students with only a student.

School bullying occurs in every area worldwide. It can occur at any time during the school hours and anywhere in the school building. Bullying can be physical, verbal, or emotional.

Bullying really affects to student who gets bullied and yet because parents, teachers, and other adults don't always see it, they may not understand how extreme bullying can get.

                Students who get bullied wake up with fears in the morning to go to school. They are afraid that they will get bullied at school in some ways, such as in physical bullying for examples hitting, punching, pulling hair, kicking, pushing, or in verbal bullying by teasing them with rude or harsh words, cursing them or name calling to intimidate them and the last in emotional bullying by spreading malicious rumors about them .

                Two of the main reasons the students are bullied are because of appearance and social status. For example a student with low social status and study in a high class school with scholarship may get bullied because the Bullies think that the student doesn’t fit to be a student of that school, and bullies usually do bullying on how a student looks like or if the bullies think that the student is gay or lesbian.

                Bullying is a big problem that affects to students who get bullied. Bullying is violence, and it often leads to more violent behavior as the bully grows up. Studies show that people who are abused by their peers are at risk for mental health problems, such as low self-esteem, stress, depression, Feeling as if their life has fallen apart, anxiety and Excessive stress. In the long term it can lead to posttraumatic stress disorder, mental illness such as psychopathy, and an inability to form relationship, and the worse, they may also think about suicide more.  Some teen bullies end up being rejected by their peers and lose friendships as they grow older. Bullies may also fail in school and not have the career or relationship success that other people enjoy.

According to the American Psychological Association, approximately 40% to 80% of school-age children experience bullying at some point during their school careers

                There is evidence that bullying increases the risk of suicide. It is estimated that between 15 and 25 children commit suicide every year in the UK alone, because they are being bullied.

            Sometimes the student who becomes the victim of repeated bullying cannot control the need for revenge and the situation becomes dangerous for everyone.

                Dombeck says that as a forty-year-old man, he still feels the effects of the bullying he received as a ten-year-old. Every day, he would dread riding the bus home from school because he was bullied by the older children on the bus. That fact shows us how bullying affects the students so much. It is hard to erase the memory of being bullied. The physical bullying may get erased as they grow up but the scars in their hearts…it needs big effort to erase it.

                But some have argued that bullying can teach life lessons and instill strength. Helene Guldberg, a child development academic, sparked controversy when she argued that being a victim of bullying can teach a child "how to manage disputes and boost their ability to interact with others” and the teachers should not intervene, but leave children to respond to the bullying themselves
                Despite occasional assertions that bullying can be positive and even productive, the avowed normative consensus is that bullying is a form of abuse and is wholly negative. Bullying is a violence and it is obvious caused scars for a long time to students who get bullied.
                So Once Again Bullying at School is a big no.

               

OH SHIT

lingkaran hitam atau mata panda..........

it's getting worse guysssssss how??????

scarrryyy  right?

NYESEK

 Jadi gini kan aku sebagai anggota Drumband jadi ikut Pawai Taaruf memperingati tahun baru Islam kan. Mulainya jam 7 pagi jadi mesti nginap, akhirnya sehari sebelum nampil aku nginap dirumah Thalia. Sebelum pergi kerumah Thalia, aku jemput Ira dulu, soalnya dia nebeng hahaha, nah pas udah sampai dirumah Ira eh teringat kalau lupa bawa kerudung putih , yaudah ngebut langung balik kerumah soalnya udah jam 8 malem dan mesti beli beberapa barang lagi. Udah ambil kerudung terus kerumah Dhea terus langsung cari celana legging putih buat nampil besoknya, hampir hopeless banget soalnya nyarinya susah ditambah hujan lagi -_-
 Tapi pas toko yang kesekian akhirnya dapet, terus setelah itu aku Dhea dan Ira pergi menuju Hamtari Dansen untuk beli bulu mata dll. Pas udah selesai bayar eh si Ira dapet sms kalo ternyata gaperlu beli bulu mata soalnya udah disiapin sama Kak Ninok yang ngerias. Itu sms gak nyampe 1 menit loh dapetnya. NYESEK. terus akhirnya kita beli barang yang lain.
 Setelah selesai belanja kita menuju rumah Thalia, dipertengahan jalan aku ingat kalau aku lupa bawa sikat gigi, yaudah akhirnya kerumah Thalia buat taruh barang terus pergi lagi nyari sikat gigi. Kata Thalia deket diujung komplek ada toko, nah kata Dhea dia tau dimana, jadinya aku minta ditemenin sama Dhea...
 Pas udah diujung komplek. Aku liat ke kiri kok kayak ada toko, terus aku tanya sama Dhea.
 "Dhe tokonya dimana?
 "Udah belok kanan aja ya" Akhirnya aku belok kanan dan gak nemu toko akhirnya kita ke jalan raya dan mampir di warung kecil, tapi gadapet akhirnya kemini market baru dapat, setelah dapat pulang kerumah Thalia. Pas perjalanan pulang aku toleh ke arah kiri (yang tadi aku liat kayak ada toko) dan ternyata bener disitu tokonya. NYESEK deh pergi jauh jauh hujan lagi. -_-
 Pas udah sampai kerumah Thalia, aku baru tau kalau ternyata kerudung putih gajadi dipake. NYESEK lagi deh-_-
 Akhirnya karena udah malam kami bersiap tidur tapi sebelumnya makan nasi goreng dulu hahaha, emang kalau udah cewek tidur sama sama pasti banyak gosipnya, jadi kita cerita mulai dari percintaan, perseteruaan, samapai cerita hantu, setelah jam 12 malem kita semua terlelap tidur.
 Jam setengah empat kami semua sudah bersiap, lalu datanglah kak Ninok dan sektar jam 6:45 pagi kami telah selesai dandan dan lain -lain.
 Setelah itu kami ketempat start pawai yaitu di Korem, yaAmpun pas pawai jauh banget muternya dan panas banget ckckck, setelah selesai nampil, langsung buka heels, kaki sakit men pada lecet semua.
 Udah sampai situ aja.